I read once that every one who is extremely overweight has to hit bottom and reach a turning point in order to have the strength to change, I must have hit that point a few days ago. I was just about to go to bed and I realized I could not remain the way I was. It wasn't fair to my kids, it wasn't fair to my husband, and it wasn't fair to me.
So for the last 4 days I have finally been practicing what I preach and eating healthy. I found a wonderful calorie tracker on livestrong.com called my plate. I feel so special every time I put in what I ate and know it was the right thing. I have also been using the eliptical I made husband by me 2 years ago that I swore I needed.
Now I do cardio for 30 min at least 5 days a week. That first day was probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. Using music or TV as a distraction has alway been my MO, but now I do it in silence. Everyday I feel like I win a war, the whole time I tell my self I am beautiful and strong and in control. By staying positive and thinking of what I can eat and what I will be able to do has helped me not have any temptation (other that wanting an extra tuna sandwich for lunch yesterday, which I resisted).
It's only been 3 1/2 days, but I have no doubt I will succeed. To keep me honest, I will post my progress on here with advice for anyone going through the same thing.
starting weight: 252 (ouch!)
goal weight: 160
mini goal: get under 220 by my anniversary ((August 10) (and before anyone tells me thats not healthy, you always lose the first weight fast, I lost 5 lbs the first day) ))
I weigh in monday mornings so feel free to check in and cheer me on.
If anyone is open to some friendly competition, bring it on, we can even have prizes!
Let me end with a quote I found in tip-a-day guide to healthy living by Melanie Douglass-
"Make a promise to yourself--right now--that you will appreciate your body as the precious gift from God it was meant to be. Satan is jealous of your physical body because he doesn't have one--and he'll continually try to seduce you to abuse, neglect, and despise yours. Don't let him!"